Lost. No warning at all. Totally lost.
I’d met him at another party. Maybe it was a concert. Friend’s birthday? We couldn’t recall. We’d only spoken briefly at this party. There was a lull between when I arrived and when everyone else I knew did. As I passed the kitchen I recognized a familiar face and grasped that social straw.
I’m terrible at parties. No, not terrible, I am average at parties. I say vague things and tell minimally interesting stories and every once in a while manage to get off one brilliant joke so people don’t just turn away from me.
That’s happened before. Occasionally people do just stop listening to me, pivot 45 degrees in another direction and leave me hanging. I was so relieved when my friends showed I probably did that to him.
After the songs were sung and the candles blown out and the toasts made everyone’s brains toasty I snuck out. I was too tired for stairs. So I punched the button for the elevator and made myself busy with my phone.
“Been waiting long?” he asked. I hadn't even heard him behind me.
I looked up, less startled because I was more drunk, and he was right there, barely a person’s width away from me. My head swung around and suddenly I was looking right into his eyes. I’m too shy to do that normally.
They were green. A jade green that seemed polished and cool but alive. He wasn’t shy. He was looking directly at me, not turning away. I can’t speak for his mouth but his eyes were smiling.
As usually happens in these situations I was speechless. I got a little unexpected vertigo and fell forward a bit into the eyes. I hadn’t noticed them before. I’m not an eyes person normally. I tend toward hands, sometimes lips or chins. Always something you can see when your head is bowed a little. This time, though, I got caught in the eyes and was suddenly lost. They seemed to want me right where they had me. He was going to pivot in the other direction any second and I’d lose them. I stood up on my tiptoes, braced myself with a hand on his shoulder and kissed him.
He kindly stepped in toward me so I wouldn’t tip over. I felt his hand on my waist, just at the hip, and it didn’t just rest there he held it the way you tighten your hand around something you don’t want to drop. I finished kissing and leaned back ever so slightly then he closed the gap and returned the favor.
Before I wanted it to be over a bell dinged and the elevator doors opened. We each spun a bit to face the arriving carriage. I licked my lips, wondering if I looked kissed but unable to stop grinning. I was a little embarrassed but his hand hadn’t left my hip.
No one was in there.
He guided me into the elevator in quite a gentlemanly way. We turned, as you do, to face front. The doors closed.
At lightning speed we were kissing again. I stabbed my fingers into his loose, curly hair and that hand of his moved off my hip. It came front and I felt a nipple pinched between fingertips. The sweet sting of it made me rise all the way up on my toes. I was vaguely aware of trying to straddle one of his legs. Any second clothes were going to come off. How long did it take to go down 7 flights anyway?
The apartment door opened and someone else exited the party. “Been waiting long?” she asked as she rummaged in her stylish purse. She wasn’t looking in anyone’s eyes.
“I’ve only been here a minute and…” he gestured to me.
“Just a couple of minutes, not long at all.” I stammered.
We all turned to face the elevator doors, thinking our own thoughts.
dang, talk about a let-down ending! haha...i HATE that feeling. i almost have the same feeling when the other half walks in on my "me" time. i love sex with him, but i need some personal love time without someone spectating, you know?ReplyDelete
anyway. the let-down from being "caught" with myself was the same way i felt at the end of this.
Laura, as a writer that's kind of awesome and too bad. So Yay! But also, sorry.ReplyDelete
As always thanks for the feedback, it's a huge help to me.
loved it, and ditto laura re the letdown. exactly like getting caught with the me time! beautiful intensity. favorite line : There was a lull between when I arrived and when everyone else I knew did.ReplyDelete
So you didn't sleep with him? Well damn. Shiny writing Kizz. Well done.ReplyDelete
don't worry about the bad part - you achieved your goal in sharing that feeling. you just happened to do it rather well. ;)ReplyDelete